depression and getting in deep!!!

In the year 2012 I was diagnosed mdd now for those of you that don't know what that is its major depressive disorder ! I am very fortunate that I got help when I needed it the most, suicidal thoughts are not good, I have been working with therapists for 14 years now. I have become radically aware of my thoughts and what they mean and how to redirect them.  Latey I've been wondering what is it like to really dive deep into my emotions, I am also in surgical menopause, yes I have hot flashes, frozen shoulder, no libido, all the things that go with it, I am also on hormone replacement therapy, which helps in the long run.  So what does it mean to dive deep. Well theres this song by Stephen Curtis champan that goes  so sink or swim im diving deep. Diving deep for me invades the most quiet corners of my mind things that I have shut out forever, put them on the back burner, things that I don't wanna remember and somethings that I long to remember like things that my parents said or did the good the bad the ugly & and the loving. Anyway here's the song!!!

The long awaited rains

Have fallen hard upon the thirsty ground

And carved their way to where

The wild and rushing river can be found

And like the rains

I have been carried here to where the river flows, yeah

My heart is racing and my knees are weak as I walk to the edge

I know there is no turning back once my feet have left the ledge

And in the rush I hear a voice

That's telling me it's time to take the leap of faith

So here I go!

[Chorus]

I'm diving in

I'm going deep

In over my head I want to be

Caught in the rush

Lost in the flow

In over my head I want to go

The river's deep

The river's wide

The river's water is alive

So sink or swim I'm diving in

[Verse 2]

There is a supernatural power

In this mighty river's flow

It can bring the dead to life

And it can fill an empty soul

And give a heart the only thing

Worth living and worth dying for, yeah

But we will never know the awesome power of the grace of God

Until we let ourselves get swept away into this holy flood

So if you'll take my hand

We'll close our eyes and count to three

And take the leap of faith, come on let's go

[Chorus]

I'm diving in

I'm going deep

In over my head I want to be

Caught in the rush

Lost in the flow

In over my head I want to go

The river's deep

The river's wide

The river's water is alive

So sink or swim I'm diving in!!!

Lately I've been curious about the sunken ship is the SS Edmund Fitzgerald in lake superior one of the five great lakes of Michigan, I would love to dive deep into this lake and discover many a things about that shipwreck 🚢 ⚓️ 🛳 🔱  but lake superior is huge and deep and there is a whole forest intact in the middle of it with abandoned mineshafts. That would be the neatest thing ever. But for right now I'm going to study about I will get back to you on this topic.

That's all for now thanks for reading